Hoping in God

Is this faith? This being sure of one thing, and unsure of everything else? This desperate hanging-on as I am torn between my deepest and most potent insecurities and the utter unassailability of what I know about the goodness of God? Is it this continuous and exhausting striving to re-align my skewed sense of things and my chaotic emotions so they fit what I cannot deny - the immutable kindness and righteousness of a God who came to die? Can this struggle be good?

For whoever is born of God overcomes the world: and this is the victory that overcomes the world, even our faith.

(1 John 5:4)

In which you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you are in heaviness through manifold trials: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ...

(1 Peter 1:6-7)

Why are you cast down, O my soul? and why are you disturbed within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

(Psalm 43:5)